When I talk to myself, sometimes I call myself my dead name, or my gender I don’t associate myself with. I am self-aware enough to know I’ve associated myself as male and [name] for thirty-seven years, but it annoys me I haven’t made that connection in my brain somewhere that yes, I’m a girl, my name is Eshe. I feel it in my soul, so why is my brain being such an ass?

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    1 year ago

    LPT I avoid deadnaming myself by using my birth name but changing the spelling lol.

    But yes even after a few years I still misgender myself sometimes. It happens unfortunately 😕